|Warnbro beach sunset.|
Tense. Wound up. Fragile. Teary. Emotional. Those are just some of the words that describe me this weekend. And it’s not that time of the month either.
Why? I’m not really sure. I think this happens to most of us from time to time and I figure, if it only happens a few times a year, it’s OK. I’m allowed to be fragile a tiny bit of the time, right?
A dream I had the other night of a wave crashing over me is a bit of a clue – I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed by life at the moment.
|Gluten-free bread and cake,
made today for Blue Eyes.
It’s just a particularly busy time and I’m balancing a lot. And giving a lot. It happens when you have kids (and even when you don’t). I feel like everyone wants a piece of me at the moment and I don’t want to share. I’m fine one minute and not the next.
As I write, the kids are on various electronic items and Blue Eyes, bless him, is snoring on the couch. He’s been busy too, so I’m happy to see him relaxing. So why can’t I seem to? I’ve had a foot soak, gone to bed early the last two nights…but I still feel a bit on edge, like I will cry at any moment.
The thing is, it’s OK to be fragile sometimes. It’s OK to be emotional, to express what’s inside, rational or not. It’s OK to want some time out from everything for a little while. I just don’t want those crushing feelings to linger any more than necessary. But there is a time for these feelings.
This quote by Carrie Latet sums it up quite well:
Good quote, isn’t it? And spot on. I’ve been so caught up in the busy-ness of my life, that I’ve neglected to nurture me. It’s time I gave myself a break! Just for a while.
As for my spiritual centre, here’s something from the Bible that relates to everyone, regardless of their spiritual position. These words were also used in the song “Turn, turn, turn” by The Byrds. What it’s saying is that there’s always been a time for people to cry, to be silent, to heal, to build and more. It’s important and it’s OK. Allow yourself the gift of that time, as I am learning to do when I need to. I’ve got a long way to go, but I’m starting to accept this about life.
“There is a time for everything,and a season for every activity under the heavens:a time to be born and a time to die,a time to plant and a time to uproot,a time to kill and a time to heal,at time to tear down and a time to build,a time to weep and a time to laugh,a time to mourn and a time to dance,a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,a time to search and a time to give up,a time to keep and a time to throw away,a time to tear and a time to mend.a time to be silent and a time to speak,a time to love and a time to hate,a time for war and a time for peace.” Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8